Life

I am empty.

Empty I am.

Life is meaningless, yet life is beautiful.

I fill it with colours.

I fill it with emotions.

I push and I strive to know my bounds,

But yet I realised, our deeds bound by what we can find.

So be it, I say, and embrace what I am.

A vessel to fill, with life's joys and its damns.

我即空

空即我

生命毫无意义，却也难掩它的美丽

我填它以色彩

我填它以情感

我追逐我奋斗，想了解界限的广阔

可我也意识，每人都有其能力的局限

那就这样吧，我说，并接受这样的自己

当一个容器，承载生命的欢悦与不堪

And so she moves on.

She wakes up. She works. She eats. She sleeps.

She wakes up. She works. She eats. She sleeps.

She wakes up. She works. She eats. She sleeps.

She wakes up. She works. She eats. She sleeps.

And she is waiting, although it might take time, perhaps her world could be colourful again.

听

我们向彼此喊话

彼此听到

彼此。。。装听不到

我已经好很多了

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔起床时会流眼泪

因为另一边曾有你的温度

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔放工开门进房时会感到失落

因为曾经你总在沙发上等我回来

然后有气没力地说：“我饿了”

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔会酗咖啡

因为只有喝着那一杯杯的一小段时间里

我是快乐的

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔会无端端痛哭流泪

因为那是荷尔蒙触发的心情低落

我已经好很多了

我其实。。。真的有好过吗。。？

承认脆弱

从小到大，我给人的印象都是独立自主，坚强不惜的。

其实他们都被我的伪装给骗了。

我很多时候都很胆小，迷茫和无助。

看着他们看我的眼光或着依赖着我的能力，我不得不一次又一次地告诉自己，你当刚强壮胆，你当勇敢。

好吧，我认了，或许这就是我的命。

可是，我该依靠谁呢？

天，我真的心累了。

希望有天有个人可以告诉我，在我这里你就别装了，尽情地依赖我吧。

So, what's next?

I've been sad for so many months. 

Now, I have gotten over it, I no longer cry or sad about it.

I guess I've been through the stages of grief, such a journey, proud of myself. :)

I.HAVE.MOVE.ON.

So, what's next?  

Love myself more, I don't want to torture myself by not eating, not sleeping or shut myself out from the world anymore.

I want to climb higher in my career, get myself ready for the next challenge. If the current position is the highest I can be in this company, then I shall leave, I don't like to be trapped forever. I don't work to survive, I work to enjoy life.

Make myself pretty, try new styles, lesser t shirt and jeans. Life is too boring without beautiful clothes.

Travel alone? Or find a travel companion... Next stop, Europe.

I'm ready for the next relationship. It's exciting, I don't know who will I end up with, hope that we treat each other well. Anyway, I won't desperate for it, am not afraid of being alone anymore. 

Now, I'm telling myself...

Every moments that I've encountered, be it sad or happy, they are part of life lessons. I'm grateful for everything I had experienced.

I shall be the better person and overgrowth myself everyday.

I shall be the ideal woman whom I want myself to be.

I shall achieve my life goals. 

Breakup

When we no longer cross our path

There's when we fall apart

You said you loved me

You said that's a promise

I kept the promises

Too hurt when it's one sided

I was in a total mess

And you left me, you left me

It's hard to stand back up

Memories keeps breaking me down

Perhaps I'm too into you

Perhaps you are not that though

How dumb I find those tales

are nothing but some good old lies

I thought that we were exceptional

But frankly it's my delusional

The fallen pieces of heart

Putting it back could be hard

Never mind I can figure out

Maybe by stop crying out loud

:'(

不能吗?

世界很冷，我只想被温柔对待。

爱自己

每每跟人说要多爱自己，其实最不会爱自己的是我自己。

想念

我想念，湖边的街，远处的山，还有倒映在湖中的风景。

我想念，秋天的风，落下的叶，还有曾经在我身旁的你。

眼泪

眼泪啊，它在滑落，
划过脸颊，划过下巴，
最后它呀，滴在虚无里。

Emptiness

If these walls could talk, they can tell how empty this feeling is.
If this room served as a container, it is filled with sorrow.

給你溫柔

如果，給與你的溫柔都賦予東流，我是不是該醒來了?

不等了，累了。

這領悟，疼。

原來，破碎的心，一個人是修不回來的。

茫

心，空缺。

底线

我随和不代表好欺负
我坚强不代表好施压
我装傻不代表不知道
我微笑不代表不愤怒
我擅长忍耐
一旦过了底线
就休怪我无情

负面情绪爆炸

快被逼疯了，工作与爱情。
不能带负面情绪回家倾诉，
不能带负面情绪去工作里!
隐忍隐忍再隐忍!
一切都如此地不顺心，
还要坚强地强颜欢笑。
没人可以说，
没人可以了解。
想辞职，
想逃避，
想窝在某人的怀里静静。
没有可能，
怎么可能察觉!?
不想给人压力，
结果堆积压力。
被忽略的个体，
怎么会被人重视?
没人，
没人察觉出我的失常。。。
我不快乐 :'(

缘尽

当缘分尽了的时候，无论你们曾是多好的朋友，多亲的同事，都自然而然地渐行渐远。。。回想在一起时的快乐时光，感叹时间的残酷同时，也让人不胜唏嘘。

无言

有些时候，当你遇到某些人时，你的爱，你的恨，你的万千情绪，千言万语，全都化作那一抹微笑，还有，平淡的语气问候：“你好吗？”
那人没重视过你的心情，你又何须坦言直白？
也何必，撕破脸皮，让自己更不堪？
笑言自己还不够豁达，比起虚伪，最后选择了内伤。

倾心

嘘
细耳聆听吧
微风划过
雨滴落地的声音
它激起的涟漪
一波一波
仿佛那悸动的心
那
为你倾心的心

车里

车里，是个很好的私人空间。
可以在里面尽情地唱歌，想东西，甚至歇斯底里地哭泣，释放情绪。
下了车，又是平时别人看到的我。