我已经好很多了

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔起床时会流眼泪

因为另一边曾有你的温度

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔放工开门进房时会感到失落

因为曾经你总在沙发上等我回来

然后有气没力地说：“我饿了”

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔会酗咖啡

因为只有喝着那一杯杯的一小段时间里

我是快乐的

我已经好很多了

虽然偶尔会无端端痛哭流泪

因为那是荷尔蒙触发的心情低落

我已经好很多了

我其实。。。真的有好过吗。。？

承认脆弱

从小到大，我给人的印象都是独立自主，坚强不惜的。

其实他们都被我的伪装给骗了。

我很多时候都很胆小，迷茫和无助。

看着他们看我的眼光或着依赖着我的能力，我不得不一次又一次地告诉自己，你当刚强壮胆，你当勇敢。

好吧，我认了，或许这就是我的命。

可是，我该依靠谁呢？

天，我真的心累了。

希望有天有个人可以告诉我，在我这里你就别装了，尽情地依赖我吧。

So, what's next?

I've been sad for so many months. 

Now, I have gotten over it, I no longer cry or sad about it.

I guess I've been through the stages of grief, such a journey, proud of myself. :)

I.HAVE.MOVE.ON.

So, what's next?  

Love myself more, I don't want to torture myself by not eating, not sleeping or shut myself out from the world anymore.

I want to climb higher in my career, get myself ready for the next challenge. If the current position is the highest I can be in this company, then I shall leave, I don't like to be trapped forever. I don't work to survive, I work to enjoy life.

Make myself pretty, try new styles, lesser t shirt and jeans. Life is too boring without beautiful clothes.

Travel alone? Or find a travel companion... Next stop, Europe.

I'm ready for the next relationship. It's exciting, I don't know who will I end up with, hope that we treat each other well. Anyway, I won't desperate for it, am not afraid of being alone anymore. 

Now, I'm telling myself...

Every moments that I've encountered, be it sad or happy, they are part of life lessons. I'm grateful for everything I had experienced.

I shall be the better person and overgrowth myself everyday.

I shall be the ideal woman whom I want myself to be.

I shall achieve my life goals. 

Breakup

When we no longer cross our path

There's when we fall apart

You said you loved me

You said that's a promise

I kept the promises

Too hurt when it's one sided

I was in a total mess

And you left me, you left me

It's hard to stand back up

Memories keeps breaking me down

Perhaps I'm too into you

Perhaps you are not that though

How dumb I find those tales

are nothing but some good old lies

I thought that we were exceptional

But frankly it's my delusional

The fallen pieces of heart

Putting it back could be hard

Never mind I can figure out

Maybe by stop crying out loud

:'(

不能吗?

世界很冷，我只想被温柔对待。

爱自己

每每跟人说要多爱自己，其实最不会爱自己的是我自己。

想念

我想念，湖边的街，远处的山，还有倒映在湖中的风景。

我想念，秋天的风，落下的叶，还有曾经在我身旁的你。

眼泪

眼泪啊，它在滑落，
划过脸颊，划过下巴，
最后它呀，滴在虚无里。

Emptiness

If these walls could talk, they can tell how empty this feeling is.
If this room served as a container, it is filled with sorrow.

給你溫柔

如果，給與你的溫柔都賦予東流，我是不是該醒來了?

不等了，累了。

這領悟，疼。

原來，破碎的心，一個人是修不回來的。

茫

心，空缺。