去向

合约到期了，遵照六年前下的决心，是时候辞职了，本来是四月，现在拖到了七月，帮公司也已经帮到仁至义尽了。最近一直把事物能教的教，能交代的交待代给将会代替我的同事。辞职信也打好了，就等着印出来呈上去。

全部知道我要辞职的人纷纷问我找到工了？计划好了？我都说让我休息一个月先吧。其实我也不知道自己要怎样，就是在那一个月休息的时候好好地想想，先完全脱离这家公司才说。

也有人说我拿着的薪水不错，又做了那么久，有权，有地位，习惯这里的环境又舒服，为什么辞职？就是这个习惯才让我害怕，很明显我已经处在comfort zone了，再不走，难道要整世人蹲在这里？好像我一些 senior 那样？所以就想要趁年轻，闯闯，看看外面的世界。

踏出第一步的确是需要勇气的，做这个决定其实让我很没安全感，想到要重新适应新环境和重新来过就觉得害怕，可是，没关系的，既来之则安之，可能这就是另一个转折点。或好或坏，暂时就不管了！我只是知道不离开就只会这样得过且过地过日子，我会很不甘心！我要战斗人生！！

去吧！诗慧！

值得纪念的日子

此时此刻，感触良多，六年了，终于等到了这一天，六年前的我一直都想象不到我现在会是个怎样的样子。

我要谢谢以前我所做的决定，签这合约，如果没有这个举动，或许没有现在的我，或许也认识不到现在的朋友。

六年来，咬牙切齿，熬过了无数懊悔和逃避的心情，无数“你是傻瓜”或者“你好可怜”的眼神，一直告诉自己我是值得庆幸了，我已经好过很多人了，有得到东西，就得付出，天下是没有白吃的午餐！在这里，要谢谢公司的提拔和教导，谢谢老板的赏识。我珍惜这六年所学到的东西，当然，有些地方还有待改进，我会努力改变的。

现在，已经没有枷锁绑着了，不用再在每一年的愚人节倒数还有几年了，我自由了！
这是我人生中的另一个里程碑，接下来的路，要靠自己走了，无论是怎样的路，未来都会有更多的挑战，可是，为了我的将来，我不会轻言放弃，有难题就解决，一步一步稳稳地走下去。

加油，诗慧，你能的。:)

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这段有放在fb里，一边打，一边在那里感触得哭了，哭得很厉害，就从第一个字哭到最后一个字，那是一种释放，六年的释放。

給你，也給我自己

这首诗，算不上自己作的，参考的成分居多。

给你，也给我自己。

虽然说这首诗对我来说也不需要了，就当顺便警惕自己吧。

落花虽有情，流水却无意；
情义已不存，何苦去思忆？
劝君莫停留，独自图泪流；
放下心中瘤，天涯海阔游！

放下就轻松多了，朋友！
:)

行动

别把想做的事情变成只是一种意识，而不是行动。

Merry Christmas!

Yo! Merry Christmas everybody! Happy holiday! But i still need to work today... Aiya...

There are 2 events happen to me today in my working place, ioi mall, the toilet beside cinema of old wing.

Let me introduce the toilet first. Before renovation, the toilet got a door and a very clear signboard stated female and male. After renovation, the toilet no longer have the door, they just mark a big female and male drawing on the wall which usually people may get confuse or ignore it. So, let me start the story right now.

First event happen at around 2pm... When i was just came out from the toilet, there are many people pass by (the movie just finish), they are blocking me, so i just stand in front of the toilet waiting a chance to go. Then suddenly an aunty around 60 to 70 years old pass by, wearing a big and clean spectacle (please believe my professional), when she saw me, she stopped, stare at me, look at the toilet beside me (the male one), stare at me the second time, then without asking or anything else she just went into the male toilet!! OH MY GOD!!! I straight away =.='' ! She is so fast that i can't even stop her!! So, i went out with a big smile on my face. When i reach my outlet, i can't control anymore and laugh out loud.

Second event happen at around 5pm... This time is when i was walking to the toilet...
In front of me there is a couple of husband and wife at around 40 to 50 years old... Same thing happen to them, they confuse in front of the toilet... I pass by and just turn in to the toilet... When the moment i turn in, i heard the husband told the wife "she's a female, she's a female, just follow her!" ( In cantonese ---> 'lui yan lei geh, lui yan lei geh, gen hui yap la!') So, i =.='' the second time today...

Conclusion, my body figure really that bad meh, ha!? The first event aunty, i got the front leh! and my hair is quite long!! The second event uncle and aunty, i don't blame you because my back really looks like a guy, but, uncle, can you say in a s-o-f-t-e-r voice?? ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The female and male drawing is so big and obvious on the wall!!!!

I laugh the whole day today, including my colleagues, they all said 'gim tou ha la''检讨下啦' which means go self-concious a bit lar...

Haih... It's time to change, huh?